i am easily pissed off lately. i don't know why exactly but i'm guessing that this is the aftermath of not to talking to the One up there lately. don't get me wrong here my dear fellas, i have absolutely nothing against God but i just can't bring myself to talk to Him right now. Let's just say..i'm not in the mood. Maybe i`m just being too lazy or just feeling really indifferent. arrrgh. i just hope He understands. :| i just feel so alone, insecure and indifferent these past few days. arrrrrrgh! Stress can really be such a monster sometimes. i was able to watch Stephen King`s THE MIST the other day. i must say that this is definitely a must-see movie. Here's a synopsis:A powerful thunderstorm unleashes a mist that envelops a small Maine town. Dozens are trapped inside a supermarket knowing that in the mist are horrible creatures which feed on humans. Being stranded takes its psychological toll. The trapped shoppers split into 2 camps: those who believe it is an act of a vengeful god who demands human sacrifice and those don't. Based on a rather long short story by Stephen King, long considered one of his scariest. (www.imdb.com)
i swear this film has the most unexpected, shocking and ironic ending ever. i just really felt bad for the people.
My boyfriend and i had our 1st monthsary yesterday! yaay! :D But unfortunately, we were not together to do something special about it. He's in my hometown and it's a three-hour drive from where i am at (CDO city) so we can't really see each other just like that. But it's totally fine with me. i mean, i also want our monthsary to be something special but i just feel so indifferent. TBH, i am having doubts about my feelings towards him. Silly ey? not to mention plain stupid to be with a guy you don't really love. He's nice and all but i just can't find myself to love him. This is the it's-not-you-it's me drama in a relationship. i know it's my fault. i just have this tendency to jump fast into a relationship even if i haven't sorted out my feelings for the guy yet. Don't get me wrong here okay? i am not a slut or something. it's just that i love the thought of having a boyfriend so i say yes to a guy on impulse. But i'm kinda loyal okay? i don't collect and select. i stick to one. But when i already have a guy i can call mine, it's only when i realize that he's not really my type (meaning, he doesn't fit in my standards) or that i simply just don't belong with him. And it's always too late to back out because the guy is already into me and then i start to feel guilty because i know it would totally break his heart if i call the relationship off. believe me, i had a couple of guys crying for me (i`m not bragging, mind you). and i get scared sometimes because karma may just be around the bend waiting to get me. lalala. not to mention, i`m still not over my ex. arrrrrgh! i just can't deal with this right now but i hope i can figure things out soon. i think this is just a case of a love bipolar. :|