and maybe someday,

i could finally say, 

"this time, i got it right.."

STRANGE FACTS.

* there`s always a little truth behind every "JUST KIDDING".

* a little knowledge behind every "I DON'T KNOW"

* a little emotion behind every "I DON'T CARE"

* a little pain behind every "IT'S OK"

so remember what you see and what you hear 

is not what you always get.

BF Potential surv.

 so i stumbled into this survey in FB
and although i was never really into this kind of stuff
i was very much intrigued with this surv so
i give in..here are my answers.


1.is being handsome a must?
* ahmm..not really..but it's a factor. of course
we want our babies to come from good genes here ayt? haha..

2. smart?
* definitely.

3. preferred Age?
* hmm..3-5 yrs. older than me is the max..1-2 yrs. younger than me is the min ((:

4. preferred height?
* of course, taller than me.

5. How about sense of humor?
* yah think?! haha..of course this is a must.

6. How about piercings?
* hmm..depends if he looks good with them on.

7. Accepts you for who you are?
* hell to the yeah.

8. Pink hair?
* what?! definitely a no-no! what d hell r u thinking?!

9. mushy or no?
* hmm..a bit will do.. hehe.

10. Thin or fat?
* i usually go for the skinny boys
but chubby ones will do..maybe.depends.

11. Moreno(dark) or chinito or mestizo?
* hmm..chinito but moreno..hehe ((:

12. Long hair or short hair?
* whatever suits him.

13. Plastic or metal?
* huh??!

14. Smells good?
* OF COURSE.

15. Smoker?
* nope. na-ah.
16. Drinker?
* hmm..occasionally. only if he's with me
or he'll tell me prior to the "session".

17. Boy-next-door type?
* hmm..will do. not really concern with the type..so, yea.

18. Musically inclined?
* hell yeah.

19. Plays piano?
* yes, i'd like that. but i love guitarists too ((: much more a vocalist.

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar
* yeah.

21. Plays violin?
* haha..hmm..if he loves playing vio then, y not.
it's like havin Ji Hoo for a bf..weew.

22. Sings very good?
* what?! are you crazy? of course..yeah.

23. Vain?
* definitely a no-no. amma punch him if he is.

24. With glasses?
* hmm..u mean a geeky glass? well, as long as he's got the brains to match it.

25. With braces?
* nope.

26. Shy type?
* yeah.

27. Rebel or good boy?
* a rebel with a cause.

28. Active or passive?
* hmm..not really getting this.
maybe both, depends on what's he's active or passive for.

29. tight or bomb?
* huh?!

30. Singer or dancer?
* both.

31. conceited?
* NO.

32. Hiphop?
* hmm..nah, maybe not.

33. Earrings?
* i told u already right?! as long as he looks good with them on. duh?

35. dull or stupid?
* double duh?! major NO. duh? agen.

36. Mr. count-my-ex-girlfriends-un

til-you-drop?
* haha..wat?! oh maybe not.

37. Dimples?
* yeeees! :D

38. Bookworm?
* yep..DEFINITELY. i am starting to be one so it'll be best if he is.

39. Mr. love letter?
* if he exists..haha! i'd like a guy like that.

40. stubborn?
* a little won't hurt.

41. Flirt?
* major NO! only if he does it with me though..hmmm.. :|

42. Poem writer?
* sure. as long as he writes for me.

43. Serious?
* a bit.

44. Campus crush?
* hmmm, that would really be hard on my part but yeah, sure, whatever.

45. Painter ..?
* hmmm..a pianist, a guitarist, a vocalist,
a vioinist (is this correct?) and now a painter?! weew! talented much?!
haha. but yea, watever he loves to do.

46. Religious?
* nope, spiritual, yeah. as long as he has FAITH.

47. comedian?
* hmmp..no.

48. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
* both?!

49. Speaks 20 languages?
* can we lower that down to like 3-5?! haha..

50. Loyal o faithful?
* can he be one but not the other?! duh.

im currently hooked with fb's FARMVILLE..yea, nakiuso na rin ako..lol! i admit i was pretty much  a huge anti `bout the the gaming stuff on FB. I thought it was just plain stupid to waste all your time and energy just playing coz for me it was almost like..doing nothing. And of course it would also mean a waste of money for people who don't have their own PC or laptop..like me. But earlier this afternoon, i thought that i oughta give it a try so i played and that's when the magic happens..lol. I was hooked. It was actually fun to have your own make-believe farm and be able to plant and raise farm animals..i got three sheeps, a cow, a rabit and a horse! haha..soo cool. Of course, i`m just starting so my farm still looks a bit plain but ahmm..it will progress..lol!  here's a peek:

how could you turn and just go?
when i'm here standing so cold
now you wanna work it out
tell me what's that all about?
how could you up and move on
like what you have for me is gone?
now you wanna work it out..
--BACK INTO YOU, AMBER DAVIS

so i thought yesterday was like all the ordinary days. nothing unusual. nada.zero.zilch. i put on my face and was really ready to get through the day. i checked my fone to see if there are sensible messages. yea, i usually get nonsense GM`s. And btw, to all airheads out there who don't know what GM means..it stands for group message. got it? ok. So where was i? oh yeah. So i checked up my fone and got a bit irritated when i received a message from i-don`t-know-who and so of course it was an unknown digits. it read "mai?". huh?! that's weird. how on earth did this effin unidentified whatever knew my name? so i texted back, " kinsa ni?" [translation: who u?!]. i sent it twice. after a few minutes it replied saying " aw wla lang, senxa! " [translation: oh nothing, sorry!]. so even if i was irritated i felt guilty for being such a snob. i thought if he [yea, i assumed he was a guy] knows my name then he must be a friend, right? so i was like texting him several messages asking him to reveal his identity. But i was sooo disappointed when he didnt replied to any of my messages.

Afternoon came. i was still bothered by his identity. i kept guessing who could he be because i thought his digits were familiar and then it hit me. my heartbeat started racing as i typed his name on my fone screen..."Rex?". I felt a sudden rush of nostalgia. the memories came rushing back into my head all at once. the movie house..me rushing to meet him..the mall..everything. and then the hurt. the pain of being left hanging. it all came vividly.

08.17.09. i first met him at the mall. he said he wanted to go see a movie. He was a gentleman or so i thought. it never really mattered to me if he was not the good-looking guy i expected my textmate to be. it was way far from love at first sight but i did feel a bit of giddiness. i don't exactly remember what movie we did watched but i do remember him being so nice to say "two tickets ma'am, please" to the lady who sells the tickets. i thought, awww..so sweet of him. And on we went to see the movie inside. We were not able to really concentrate on the movie `coz we were busy with each other. haha! yea, he was not exactly a gentleman but i`d rather not spill out the details here. i`d rather that you keep guessing and make those dirty minds of yours itch.

three days after, more or less. we went to see another movie. we talked, we laughed, we cuddled..blah blah blah..so yah that was about it. Moving on. So at that time, he's fone was broken and it has to be repaired so basically, he can't use it and that would only mean that our communication would be cut off for a while. i just didn't know how long. so that day, we parted ways and even after a few seconds of being away from him, i already got the feeling of missing someone. God, i`m falling for the guy.

it's been a week since the last time i was with him at that moviehouse. i started to wonder that it was weird that he still wasn't texting me because for sure his fone would have been repaired already. i started assuming things but shrugging them away thinking that there must be some really good explaination behind his absence. But another week has past and i was running out of reasons to justify his ways. I was starting to get frustrated about the situation. How could he bear not to see me or even text me to just check if i was ok or if i was even still alive. i even sent him a message on friendster.It took me another week to figured out that he was really avoiding me. Jerk! He didn't even have the balls to tell me right in the face that he doesn't want me anymore. Stupid pig! just plain stupid. The raw truth would have hurt less than to leave me guessing what went wrong.

although i was really hurt that time,and believe me, it felt like i was hit by a bus right in the face or was submerged into the coldest of the coldest part of Antartica, i managed to move on with my life like nothing happened. i haven't shed a single tear and i owe it all to my never-ending painful experiences i've already gone through in my life. sometimes, when you're used to losing significant people in the past, losing someone significant in the present seems to be not much of a big deal anymore. so losing him was..how should i say this, ahmmmm not worth crying for.

And now, here he is again after four weeks. just when i am about to finish picking up the pieces of my, of all the cliches, broken heart. And i'm afraid to say that i still have a thing for him. Just thinking of his smart ways to say or do things, how he makes me laugh and how those eyes stare as if his seeing right through me, as if he figures me out. God help me but i could really fall for all these again. I could fall for him again. well maybe, just maybe. `Coz the last thing i need right now is reiterating my mistakes.

He did tell me that he was really sorry for being such a jerk and yah, he did admit that it was entirely his fault. He even asked me this stupid question "i have nothing to get back to, right?"..i thought " yah think?! "..haha! right now we are still sorting out things and i must say that he makes it much harder `coz he's really the type who doesn't want to talk about things and explaining himself soo, yeah. But i was very forgiving to him, really. I just think that friendship could still work between us. And of course, i still wanna be with him but not the same as before. So that was about my lovelife..haha! (:


tata for now.

there's soo many things for me to do right now and i hate to say this but ahmm..they're kinda major..really. argggh. and i`m like sitting here in front of the monitor typing this nonsense blah-blah. yah..i procrastinate much. so those major things are really my school works piling up like my boogers..yeah---k!


--BIG BOOK for Educ 40 which can wait `til tomorrow although the deadline was like gazillion years ago..so yee.

--Practicum for Educ 40 again. yah this subj turns out to be pretty demanding. hmpf! oh yah which reminds me..i have to give a letter to an elementary school principal for permission like...now!

--Semi-fi on Philo 01 Logic later (1:25 pm) and needless to say dude..i haven't studied YET! yah..good thing CRAMMING exists.

--what else? oh yahh..Report for Econ 20.1. tomorrow which by the way is the one subject i can't totally relate because of the technicality shits. so yah..screw me.

--and also Banghay aralin for Fil 33. and heck! no one taught us how to do a lesson plan yet..sometimes, teachers just expects too much.tsk! and my effin classmates asked me to make one for them too..0_o but they said they're going to pay for it naman..so yee..extra money din and wooo! it's gonna cost them big time..*evil grin*.

SLOW ME DOWN.

Rushing and racing
and running in circles
Moving so fast, I'm forgetting my purpose
Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning
Getting nowhere

My head and my heart are colliding, chaotic
Pace of the world
I just wish I could stop it
Try to appear like I've got it together
I'm falling apart

Save me
Somebody take my hand, and lead me
Slow me down
Don't let love pass me by
Just show me how
'Cause I'm ready to fall
Slow me down
Don't let me live a lie
Before my life flys by
I need you to slow me down

Sometimes I fear that I might dissapear
In the blur of fast forward I faulter again
Forgetting to breathe, I need to sleep
I'm getting nowhere

All that I've missed I see in the reflection
Passed me while I wasn't paying attention
Tired of rushing, racing and running
I'm falling apart

Tell me
Oh won't you take my hand and lead me
Slow me down
Don't let love pass me by
Just show me how
'Cause I'm ready to fall
Slow me down
Don't let me live a lie
Before my life flys by
I need you to slow me down

Just show me
I need you to slow me down

The noise of the world is getting me caught up
Chasing the clock and I wish I could stop it
Just need to breathe, somebody please
Slow me down



..so ye! basically, this song speaks of what i`m going through right now.

BOTH ENDS OF THE SPECTRUM.

at naloka naman ako sandali sa dalawang violent reactions sa previous post ko! nosebleeeeeed!


MR. PANGUY-AB said...

hindi ko talaga gusto si noynoy maging president!
..xenxa na ha..pero meron talagang doubts na makakayanan niya ang position..
not because his father was a hero and his mother was a former president doesn't mean that he'll be the combination of both...
but kung ilelevel lang naman sa ibang mga presidentiables siguro ay mas mabuti nga siya...
:)

nice day..

--napaisip naman ako sa comment mo kuya. Oh well, sa tingin ko naman makakayanan niya. I have never underestimated his capabilities . At saka..marami na rin namang dumaan sa posisyong yan na wala rin naman talagang kaalam-alam. I just think that he is fit for the position considering that he seems to have a good heart and hindi rin naman talaga maikakaila na maganda ang family background niya..[dumudugo pa rin ilong ko..]


at gaya ng sabi mo..mas mabuti siya compara sa iba so sa kanya nako..kasi among them siya rin naman ang d best..nyahaha! (:

thanks sa comment mo kuya.

Yonamaria said...

tama tama! GO NOYNOY! eh kasi nman, eto n yung chance ng Pilipinas para sa pagbabago.

Hindi nman yan sa kakayahan mo, kundi kung gano ka ka determinado, at gano ka ka dedicated sa gngwa mo.

Si Gloria ba nman, uu may kakayahan nga sya, at umunlad nga nman yung Pilipinas kahit papano, pero its still a government of corruption, that fact hasn't changed, so let's give him a chance, like we gave others, (erap etc.)

-uo nga sis..feeling ko talaga [at feeling ko lang naman `to ha?] na siya yung chance of change na yun. I agree..i absolutely agree! hehe..nasa tiyaga at kalinisan lang naman ng intensyon yan. At alam ko si kuya matiyaga naman at malinis ang kalooban. Let's just pray that he will not give in to the massive temptations that will surely come along the way if ever nga magiging presidente siya. I hope he's strong faith will push him through. And of course, he deserves a chance. Siya pa?! Eh yung iba nga na whatever binigyan natin..siya pa kaya?! hehe..





OH KAYO?! reak na jan. hmmp.

At natuwa naman ako ng malaman kong tatakbo si kuya Noynoy [halata bang FC ako?! haha]. Actually, inaasahan ko na ang magiging desisyon ni kuya eh magiging positibo..na tatakbo talaga siya. Di ko lang inaasahan na sa ganun kadaling panahon [tatlong araw lang na retreat] eh nakapagdesisyon na siya sa ganito kalaking bagay. pero para sa akin..di namahalaga yun. Basta masayang-masaya ako na tatakbo siya. At sana naman eh sa darating na 2010 election eh mailuklok siya bilang presidente ng Pilipinas ng maiba naman. Puro nalang kasi kurakot ang pinapaupo..hmmp..bato bato sa langit ang matamaan ay sure ng may bukol sa ulo..haha! [: oh xaxa..di na ako masyadong mangingialam sa pulitika dahil bukod sa wala naman akong masyadong alam..madi-depress lang ako diyan..haha! bleee.

TITITITEXT.

adik na talaga ako sa text. ewan ko ba..nagmumukha na nga akong cellphone eh.tsk!

tatlo na ang text clan ko ngayon..so panu ba? eh di..mapupuno na naman `tong inbox ko sa mga walang kakwenta-kwentang gm ng mga medyo wala ring kakwenta-kwentang mga nilalang. Pero ok lang. enjoy din naman ako. marami kasi tuloy nakakachukaan ko sa text..kilala ako..kilala ko..minsan ko lang nakita..di ko pa nakita..at hindi ko pa nakikilala. Kaya lang minsan talaga medyo nakakairita na. gusto ko nalang i.delete all dahil walang kwenta naman talaga! Kung di nga lang ako naaaliw na marami akong katext ay naku di ko na pagkakaabalahan `to makakatipid pa ako ng load..joke! Di ko naman kasi napipigilan ang sarili kong magpa-load kahit na out-of-budget na.

Nauuso na kasi ngayon ang unli. naalala ko pa noon. Piso sa bawat text ang ikinakaltas sa bawat padala mo ng mensahe. kaya nuon, hindi uso ang "K" lang ang isi-send mo kasi talagang lugi ka. Dapat pag nagtext ka..ubusin mo lahat ng allowable characters para sulit naman ang bawat text na isi-send mo. Pero talagang iba na ngayon..kahit pa magsend ka ng sandamakmak na blank message..oks lang. unli ka naman. Talagang ang kalaban mo lang sa unlitext ay ang mahiwagang battery ng cellphone mo na siyang bumubuhay nito at sa unli mo na rin. Pero ang di ko lang talaga kailanman maintindihan eh kung bakit tinawag tong UNLIMITED kung mag-eexpire din naman?! Eh di limited pa rin yun. Susme! Sino bang pontio pilato ang nagpauso nito at mukhang di naman tama ang itinawag sa kachurvahan ire..hayy..noypi talaga. Eh kung may mali man sa mga sinasabi ko rito eh pasensya na po..eh naghahayag lang naman ako ng aking kinikimkim na pagkalito..hihihi.

Natutuwa din ako na sampung piso na lang ang unli ngayon [sa TM]. Kaya kahit magload ako araw-araw..may matitira pa rin naman sa baon ko. At katumbas ng sampung pisong yon..eh ang walang kamatayang chekahan at gm ang pwede kong gawin.

Strike while the iron is hot ika nga. Di ko kasi alam kung kailan talaga matatapos ang promong `to o kung promo pa nga ba ito..haha! [alam nyo ba?] Pero sana naman hindi na. Kawawa naman kasi ang mga estusyanteng tulad ko na umaasa pa rin sa baong iniaabot ng mga butihin kong mga magulang. Tipid din kasi.


Sige..balik muna ako sa pagti-text..memory full na naman ang fone inbox ko..putcha! ma.try nga and delete all..hehe! o_*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA [:


this day is a very special day
i want to offer this day..
for you, for you, for you..

this day is a very special day
Happy Birthday...Mother.

TRYING TO FIND MY WAY BACK INTO YOU.

so i'll try to put into words some of the things na natutunan ko sa youthcamp ng YFC. I really just wanna share the graces i have received during this once in a lifetime, amazing experience i have with the Lord. Not that it ends there (:


#1
During one of the sessions we had this film showing: THE PASSION. di ko kinaya nung pinagpapalo na si Jesus. Lahat na yata ng tubig sa katawan ko iniyak ko na nung makita ko ang scene na yun. That was the first time i saw the movie and i think that would also be the last. i just can't watch all the cruelty that Jesus had to go through in order to save me. Every beating that He received was all because of me. Every hint of pain that i have seen in Him is all because i was sinful. All because of my sinfulness. Di ko talaga kinaya. I rushed out of the hall with tears still falling down from my eyes. I felt so guilty na sa bawat kasalanan ko..He is beaten! Bawat palo ay dahil sa pagiging makasalanan ko.

#2
God was with me all the way. Sa lahat pala ng oras andiyan siya. Di siya kailan man nawala..kahit pa ako ang nawala. Kahit nung mga oras na pinabayaan ko ang sarili ko na magbisyo. Kahit pa sa kababawan ng saya ko, andun siya. Sa bawat alak na nilaklak ko at sa bawat sigarilyong inubos ko, andun siya. Hindi kailanman nawala.

#3
God loves me and He has a plan for me. He has a unique plan for each an everyone of us. We just have to have an open heart and let him do the wonders. He will never fail us. Kahit ano mang problema and dumating, don't lose faith because everything happens for a reason.



I swear I've learned a lot from the camp kaya lang ito na lang muna ang isi-share ko (: I admit..there were those times when i turned away from him and even refused His love. I was a prodigal daughter. All i ever cared is my selfish desire. I thought i could get on with life so easy even without Him around. But i was wrong. Dead wrong. `Coz life without Him would be ...LIFELESS. And so now i`m starting my way back home. Back to where i belong. Back to where im safe and love. Back in the arms of my Comforter. Back to Jesus.

basta ang all i know is that I`M BUFFED UP FOR THE LORD.

Sana kayo rin..you will find time to welcome God in your hearts. I'm so glad i did.
And with each day..i`ll try my very best to serve God. I know it may take a long time to be the best that I can be for Him but i know He will be with me all the way.. [:

ii <3 JESUS.

LOVE BUGGED!

My lovelife [which is a total ZERO!] is bugging me lately and needless to say..i'm becoming frustrated! 0_O whoo! I feel like grabbing the next guy that will pass by me. darn! i sound soo desperate. help! Ok. it's not like i need a boyfriend pronto [ or maybe i do..heck!]. It's just that all i see around me are happy couples and i'm feelin so left out. Da-haaamn!

Ok. So they say i should wait. Eh kailan pa ba darating si Prinsipe palaka sa buhay ko?! I`m not good at waiting you know. I was never really patient on that field. tsk!

Oh well, baka epekto lang to ng palagi kong pakikinig ng mga mellow love songs these past few days..lalalala. But seriously, when is he gonna come?

KISMET by SILENT SANTUARY.


i just love hearing first this song pag nagsa.sountrip ako.


just soo sweet [:


Didn't mean to take you for granted
Didn't mean to show i don't care
Didn't mean to throw away this once in a lifetime of chance
Being with you

And i'll drive for 2 hours
To bring butterfingers
I don't mind the distance
This kismet's a dance

This time i surrender
My everything forever
Life doesn't matter
Just our souls together

Pride no longer has room in me
On bended knees in public i cry
Your name for everyone to know that i love you, i love you
Please hear me now

And i'll drive for 2 hours
To bring butterfingers
I don't mind the distance
This kismet's a dance

This time i surrender
My everything forever
Life doesn't matter
Just our souls together

FULLY CHARGED. GAME ON.

So i just got back from the YFC Youthcamp and it was a total BLAST! [need i say more?! haha!]. Superrrr nag-enjoy talaga ako meeting new friends and at the same time learning much about Jesus. Ei super andami kong natutunan..pero di ko na to idedetalye pa dito.

i just hope that i will be strong enough to keep the faith.

*excited din ako sa mga pics..lalalala. [:


oo nga pala..yung crush ko andun din sa camp..haha! yun na!

xo,
PRINCE

iiwan ko muna ang blogsphere for a while.

YFC youthcamp will be tomorrow and i can`t wait..xuper excited to the highest sea level na talaga ito. i just hope na pagbibigyan ako ng uncle ko na sumali..hihi.


at saka..aayusin ko muna buhay ko para hindi naman lahat ng kagagahan ko na lang ang sinasabi ko dito.

mami-miss ko kau. lalo na kayo BECS, MARAI at si KRISTA rin..huhu! muah :X


cookies & cream,
PRINCE.

sinong emo?! ako?!

Hayy! bumabalik na naman yata ako sa pagiging emo. Sa pagiging whatever! hihi.
o baka siguro bored-to-death lang talaga ako ngayon.

Ewan.

`yan lang talaga ang paulit-ulit kong sinasabi sa araw na `to.


lumulutang na naman kasi ang utak ko. hmmp. maka bloghopping na nga lang.grrr!
kainis talaga me. supeerrr! haha. watttteeeeveeerrr!

ANO BANG SILBI (ng pag-aaral) KO??

So `ito na. Di ako nakapag-reflect sa sinabi kong awakening sa last post ko. Pero these past few days, hindi lang isang beses kong tinanong ang sarili ko kung bakit nga ba nabubuhay ako? Ano ba talaga ang silbi ko sa mundo? Tamang kalye pa ba ang binabaybay ko? Baka nawawala na ako at hindi na`ko makarating sa dapat kong patunguhan?..tsk! Ilan lang yan sa mga katanungang bumabagabag sa munti kong isipan. Ilang araw na rin kasi akong parang wala sa sarili. Imbes na makinig sa mga ginintuang aral ng mga profs, busy nako sa pagtipa sa keypad ng cp ko. Press send and wait for the reply. Ganun lang ang trip ko tuwing may klase. Pag nakailang check na`ko sa LCD ng cp ko at wala pang nakalagay na one (or more) messages received, saka ko aabutin ang pocketbook sa bag ko at yun naman ang pagkakaabalahan. Sa pagkakaalam ko, nagdidiscuss na yung Math teacher namin ng kinds of graphs at sa Philo naman, palaging binabanggit ni sir yung True or False at..doubtful ata yun. Pagdating sa bahay naman..ai! soundtrip lang. Iniisip kung gagawin ba talaga yung overdue na Big Book na pinapagawa ng Educ 40 teacher namin. Major.


Naalala ko pa bago `ko sinimulan ang semester na `to. May objective ako baka `kala mo..haha!

OBJECTIVE: To study well.
REASON: Para hindi madismaya ang family especially uncle ko.

Pero kalaunan para nalang itong promise. Made (o meant ba?) to be broken. Nawala. Nawala ang purpose ko kung bakit gumigising ako ng maaga. Nawala ang purpose kung bakit binibigyan ako ng baon ng uncle ko at kung bakit suot-suot ko ang uniform ko ngayon habang tinitipa ang post na `to. Nawala na rin ang silbi ng lahat ng aklat na binili ko sa sem na `to. At nawala na rin ang main purpose kung bakit naghihirap ang uncle ko sa pagtatrabaho.


Lost and not found. not YET.


Oo. May pag-asa pa naman na mahahanap ko ring muli ang purpose na yun. Kasama ang Panginoon..hahanapin ko yun. Hindi lang para sa pamilya ko. Hindi lang para sa uncle ko. Kundi para sa `kin. Sa ngayon, yung sa pag-aaral ko pa lang naman ang pilit kong hinahanapan ng sense of purpose. Alam ko, it's obvious. For my future, ika nga nila. Eh bakit?? yung iba nga diyan di naman nakapagtapos pero mukhang kailangan pa nga yata ng shades dahil sobrang bright ng future nila. Nasa pagsisikap lang naman yun. Hayyy..ewan. Ako lang yata nagpapahirap sa sarili ko.


tinatamad lang talaga siguro akong mag-aral. Malapit na rin kasi ang semi-fi.


kayo ba? may advice s mga tulad kong nawawala na sa landas? hahaha.



scat muna ako.



cookies and cream,
PRINCE

AY! NAWALA??

Sa wakas! medyo kontento na `ko sa layie ko! medyo pa lang naman..kahit medyo di ko pa rin ma-feel yung parang *ummmph*..pwede na rin siguro `to sa ngayon. (:

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Sa wakas at naka-take na rin ako ng special exam kanina sa Math. Nanginig pa ang kamay ko habang sinasagutan yung test paper. Nakastudy (=scanning!) naman ako kaso kunti nga lang. Hindi ko na nga napag-aralan ang tungkol sa linear programming dahil baka sa mental na ang bagsak ko pag pinilit ko pa ang sarili kong intindihin yun..haha! Kaya ayon, nakasagot naman ako kaya lang yung iba hindi ko na binalak na sagutan. Hayy! Sino ba namang Pontio Pilato ang nagpasimula ng subject na `to?? Sabihin nyo nga at ng maipa-salvage ko na kaagad. Hindi ba niya alam kung anong hirap and dinaranas ng milyun-milyong estudyante ng dahil sa kagagawan niya?!! bwesit!

Pero, hind ang walang kamatayang Math frustrations ang ibabahagi ko sa post kong ito kundi ang kachurvahang ito:

LOST: YOUR SENSE OF PURPOSE.

BANG! I swear natigagal ako ng mabasa ko ito sa munting tarpulin na nakapaskil sa labas ng isang building sa school namin. Parang na.press rewind na bumalik ako sa paglalakad pabalik sa kung saan nakalagay ang tarpulin. Napaisip akong bigla. Pero sa susunod na post ko na lang isi-share yung saloobin ko tungkol sa munting awakening na `to. Marami pa kasi akong gagawin..hehe! (: [binitin ba naman??! haha..hmmp..magre-reflect muna ako tungkol diyan. Sabay hanap na rin sa sense of purpose ko.]

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