there's beauty in walking away.

if you have read my previous posts, you would certainly know that i'm still  NOT OVER my ex yet. when i write about him, i don't make it sound like he`s a total jerk (when he actually is!) maybe because i am just crazy about him. I wasn't really ready to move on and just forget everything about him and what we had. it's been three months since we broke up but the truth is, i'm still hoping that we could figure things out and that he is still into me. I'm still clinging to the thought that he's just afraid to have a serious relationship again because he was hurt before and that he's just not ready to commit yet. But for the past few weeks that i`ve been "stalking" him on his facebook, i've come to realize that i was just assuming things. He's moved on and has no plans of getting back with me. As i've shared in my previous post, he is already fixated on this girl he fondly call's his "property". but earlier when i was checking his facebook wall again, i felt numb staring at the picture of the girl. He bought her in ffs. now he calls her "moy". i checked his ffs profile and i felt like crying. the girl is not his pet owner at the moment but he's prof was captioned "moy's". i felt like my world was about to explode. this caption only means that he was hers and that all the hopes are gone for me. he's not coming back. i just feel so sad right now because i hoped that we will be together again and i thought he just needed the time to sort his feelings out for me. but then again, you can't always have what you are hoping for.

and now that he has his eyes set on someone new , i think it'd be better if i walk away cause it cuts me to the core knowing that he's got another chick that he's crazy about. given that, i removed him in my FB friends. :[

i just have to cut all the bridges that connect me to him. i deleted his fone digits from my fonebook. i fought the urge to NOT memorize his new fone no. [i used to memorize the old one]..

hopefully this will help me move on.

and if we really are meant to be for each other, i believe that he will find his way back to me..without me doing all the effort.

this may sound like a sad ending for what could have been my greatest love story but i`m glad that i went through all these. i`m glad that i had him..even for a short while.

and i certainly learned my lesson.

p.s: i just want to share something about what i have learned from my bestfriend about love:

..love is not something you search or wait for, it's something that will just come to you when you least expect it. so don't search. don't expect. just let love find you.